chemicals

It is amazing how much chemicals rule my life. Or is it that I let them rule my life. Some are like water an air to me, if I odn't take them I cannot survive, others slowly deteriate my body as I take each sip. It is a balance to take the helpful chemicals and limit or elimiate the bad. But we are a chemical society. To make things better, leaner, healthier....we add chemicals.

I strive to be natural yet was born with deficiencies that need chemicals. How do I call myself natural as I do that. Each pill adds more chemicals and makes me feel that I am constantly defending myself to others and myself. Yet on the flipside I am constantly angering those around me when I don't take the meds. I affect them. And I have lost a week of my life to tiredness and numbness. Something I swore i wouldn't do again. Yet here I am again. The true question, is what am I going to do about it.