I want to relax my mind and give into the great feeling I have when I am with him. I kept analyzing and picking to see if I could find the layer that was sour. But it hit me, why look. I love that he giggles when I call, I love how he can't keep his hands off of me but isn't grabby. But as soon as I made that decision I wanted to talk more to him and realized his response wasn't the same. I don't know why but it is so hard not to analyze why. With two more weeks of not seeing him (which doesn't include the week already) it is difficult. We are still feeling this one out and I want to show him how I feel, I know he knows how I feel but I want to do something romantic. Just part of who I use to be and I am inspired again. But what could I do that wouldn't seem pushy or sufficating. Yet just kind and thoughtful. I have 10 days in cali to figure that one out. ;)
Friday, August 25, 2006
giving in
I want to relax my mind and give into the great feeling I have when I am with him. I kept analyzing and picking to see if I could find the layer that was sour. But it hit me, why look. I love that he giggles when I call, I love how he can't keep his hands off of me but isn't grabby. But as soon as I made that decision I wanted to talk more to him and realized his response wasn't the same. I don't know why but it is so hard not to analyze why. With two more weeks of not seeing him (which doesn't include the week already) it is difficult. We are still feeling this one out and I want to show him how I feel, I know he knows how I feel but I want to do something romantic. Just part of who I use to be and I am inspired again. But what could I do that wouldn't seem pushy or sufficating. Yet just kind and thoughtful. I have 10 days in cali to figure that one out. ;)
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Hi Aleece,
Hey are you going to CA for a break before you dig into career stuff? How is that all going? Well as can be, I hope. It's a bitch of thing but I feel very optimistic about your next move. As for chemical living, I hope you've never felt the need to defend yourself on my account. (If so, I'm sorry!) If you had diabetes, you'd take insulin - it's the same type of thing. If you didn't, you'd endanger yourself and your friends would worry, fear, and reflect hostility back at you. And compare one week to months of off-an-on or not at all. The simple fact that you can check-and-assess quickly is in itself a big step. I'll will be interested to hear more behind the arcane and mysterious romance post. I transfered my blog to typepad too.
It's www.fullyarnalchemist.typepad.com
Later gator!
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