Starting Over

I am ready for a change, I mean really ready. There has been the desire for a different life, an different way of living, but I haven't really been dedicated to that. I am now ready to be dedicated. I know I may trip, but I am ready to not let that derail me from my goal of being a good me and not regretting life or letting anything pass me by because of my excuses. My current excuses have been: that I am over weight, which has resulted in mixed health issues and other things that all have been used as excuses to moving forward; and that I am messy therefore cannot have people over to visit, can't have dates over, don't have time to just do good stuff for me because "I need to clean."

No longer am I waiting until "I am thinner" or "My place is clean." I am taking action. Both in acting now and by changing my behavior to make those truly non-issues. I want to let go of the pain and hurt but also all that mental clutter that fills my head over these issues.

I hope that by sharing this here, that maybe I can share with others who are experiencing similar things, but even if I just get this written down, it will be good. I need a benchmark, something to show me how far I have come and how far I go.

To new beginnings!