That scene...

I don't know about others but I have a scene from a movie that gets me in the most trouble. You know the one that you see and then realize that youare going to do better you are going to get that situation right and make that scene happen when it was suppose to at the beginning of the movie. Then again I am realizing as I write this that that scene wouldn't happen without that other stuff in between.

For me it is the ending of When Harry Met Sally. There he is waking up to his true feelings and realizes that she is THE ONE and doesn't want to wait another moment to see her to tell her to be with her. It is new years and he runs across New York and arrives at this party she is at and she is all alone in a sea of kissing couples and streamers and she seems both relieved and angry to see him. She goes off to tell him that she is done being the back up person, the one that they call on when they don't have someone else special in their lives. She is through. And he gives the monologue that makes me melt every time he speaks it. He proceeds to tell her that it isn't about back ups but he rushed there since that is what you do when you realize that you know love someone and want to spend the rest of your life with them. That everything about her is what he wants, he loves that she is the last person he talks to before he goes to sleep and the first when he wakes up. He loves...and he lists all her quirks even that she gets a crease in her forehead when she thinks he is crazy. And She is there crying, and telling him how much she hates him because just when she wants to hate him the most he goes and says something like that, and she really hates him. and they kiss a deep loving kiss.

I meet someone I like, really truly like and I worry about running across the city and finding them rejecting me or with another much happier. I fear about losing the right one. But then again truly how do you lose the right one since if they are truly right they won't get lost. So how do I pound out that need to express my deep intersts without scarying them away. Can I live without them yes. Do I want to, no. Have I said that before about others that ended up hurting me bad, yes. Am I more skiddish this time, definitely. But then that scene goes through my head and I make a jack*ss of myself and push too much. Letting them know how much I really care and how much I hope it works. That would freak me let alone anyone else. When really I am just trying to say in my awkward way, I never learned how to express deep like without coming off as needy and crazy.

lets see if the scene's in my life end up being anything near what the movie or my nightmare.