Another day and another leap

So I had a great weekend, even got some work done. I realize when I make a commitment I really pledge my loyalty, my whole Leo thing. And that shows itself in so many ways. It scares me too. It hurts like a knife when either I or another break it or when it is severed. It is also scary to start off wading in and feeling the rip tide pull me in. I am so worried about doing the wrong thing, that I get even more insecure which makes it more of a test to stay strong both for myself and the other. I hate feeling insecure. I hate feeling like I am at the mercy of others. It makes me feel caged. Not that anyone makes me feel caged, it is something that wells up inside of me. Time and finding control will help, but I feel like that is almost impossible to tackle as well. I feel squeezed, perfection, expectations, and everything around me. The saddest part of all this is that I know it all stems from my interior and my keen ability to read too much into others demeanor/words/actions. It is all me and my issues.