morning poetry: Blocked Sleepless Nights

I sleep without not quite failing asleep
But I am awaking to every noise
Expecting you to come into
the bedroom.

I wake up late enough to be sleep
Disturbed, a whining cat that misses
You too, we settle down
and cry ourselves to sleep

There is nothing worse than not being
By your side, even if I know that I am
The one disturbing your sleep,
i love you for being there

But I curse myself when I make you
Leave, when I know its good for you
And me but I know that their will be
repercussions for my lack of sleep

I reach out to you in my dreams
Just to be awaken by something cold
Something I don't feel when you are
around, my senses dulled

When I awake I am chilled, I am not
With the normal people, I am back where
I usually am, this night is the first night
that I see them without a mask