renewed

I feel renewed. I am flirtations, horny, inspired and excited about life. I look forward to laughing more and letting go of the depression I have held to closely onto like a baby security blanket. Depression that stemmed primarily a lack of confidence, causing anxiety, plus a bit of hormonal imbalanced.

I am realizing that I have the love and the energy and light with in me. I have the power to take back my life from the dark I gave it up to the insecurity demons the fear mongrels. I can protect myself with or without Bing. And that makes me love him more, in fact it is why I finally am able to give him all my heart. It is finally feeling whole and even overflowing so I can share my heart. I don't have to reserve part of it to save myself. It grows by just me giving my love, for I receive so much more in return.

This lightness I feel has got me feeling like pouncing on Bing. Making out is so much fun. Sex is good too, but at the same time so is just kissing and touching and all those good warm cuddling feelings.

Let's hope my feminine wiles will work.