The smallest things, such as a cold virus, which no one sees floating around can be the ones that brings us all to our knees, and can challenge relationships and bring out the inner sides of everyone that we try so hard to hide. It also can bring insight if one allows it. I realize that I just needed some quiet time to take care of myself, I didn't take it. Instead I did my normal thing and put my feelings aside to take care of someone who was worse and for whom I love. He didn't ask for it, in fact many times he told me not to with his words, but his actions and look in his eyes was asking for me to be there for him.
The sickness revealed to me that I am scared of the codependency that I am revitalizing within my behavior with Bing. We have such great talks, though and through our deep talks, I realized recently that my depression and codependence and "bad" habits and actions are all moving away from the light and is letting the dark influence my thoughts. I am a being of light, and never gave thought to the idea that I might have dark beings near me. I know they are far outnumbered by the light beings and most my actions.
I am still sick so these ramblings will have to continue later.
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