Wednesday, May 31, 2006

I always loved this cartoon!!!







Which She-ra Heroine are you?




She-ra. You are the princess of power! You are strong in mind and heart. You are a leader. Though you have had a disillusioned past, you have made way for a clear future. Your experience and nature make you a strong person and a force to be reckoned with if anything happens.
Take this quiz!

Monday, May 29, 2006

for the record...

I love dominos. nothing like smacking down that tile and calling chicken foot and playing until 1 in the morning. Maybe that should be in my next personal ad : must love games...board games and dominos that is :)

Sunday, May 28, 2006

tweety

I am bird sitting for Zen and I am enjoying it. It is a rainy Sunday and I am laying in bed with them near in their large cages and we are listening to bluegrass country. They love it. Go figure, tropical birds loving country.

They are all molting and it is amazing how sweet they are. I hold them and rub their neck, much like you would with a cat. So trusting and delicate they are, their heads no bigger than my thumb. Though they have a nasty bite if I rub wrong :) I can't imagine living in a world where everything close is so much bigger than I. Animals amze me with their love for and how they can bring joy from even the most cynical of us.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

over you, no really I mean it

On my drive to Zen's house my mind drifted to camping and how all my friends were doing at camping (I stayed home this year and am watching Zen's birdies and condo). I thought of my favorite camping experiences on our group trips and what came to mind is a time when I was in the arms of my boyfriend (now ex) who was leaning up against an old washed up log. It was dusk and we looked out over a lake through a few trees. It felt as if we were the only ones in the world. Life was serene and as it should be: no stress, no pressure - just peace. He suggested we meditate and chant out loud Om. I have always been self consious but I agreed since it felt so safe in his arms and so perfect. I focused on the word, then the tones of our voices as they melded together...as his deep om trailed off my higher pitched om begain and so on. It was truly beautiful.........

And then he stopped me and told me I was doing too much mmm in my om and it should be more on the oooo part.

As I was driving today I laughed out loud at remembering this. I realize how ridiculous that is. To tell someone they are meditating wrong. It is ludicris. I smile even now typing. It is amazing the people we accept in our lives when we are hurt, lonely, and run by fear and insecurity (though they all are basically the same emotion). There are some crazy people in this world!

With the laughter I realized I am over him, and I really mean it.

quote: more meditations

When you meditate, there should be no effort to control and no attempt to be peaceful. Don't be overly solemn or feel that you are taking part in some special ritual; let go even of the idea that you are meditating. Let your body remain as it is, and your breath as you find it.

Sogyal Rinpoche

more from my meditation tip of the day

the art of tea

It never ceases to amaze me on the process of making loose leaf green tea. It also never ceases to amaze me how relaxing and soothing the process is. Trying to find the perfect tempurature of water, the right amount of leaves, rinsing them in cold water for a brief moment, heating the tea pot, and sipping out of my Japanese tea cup. And to not be forgotten, the soft pause before sipping where you breath your hard work.

Friday, May 26, 2006

quote, so very on target for me

I got this quote this morning. This summarizes all that I am doing in my life now. May it bring you inspiration as well.

When we begin to take responsibility for our own development, things begin to happen by itself. It is like Existence supports our decision to develop.

Giten

from my daily Meditation Tip

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

coffee is my life

So coffee is now a key component of my life. It has become my best friend of best friends. When I am feeling alone I often find myself going to a Starbucks to sit down have a coffee and write a postcard. I look forward to my morning coffee...we are so spoiled we have an espresso machine at work that grinds the coffee fresh for the shots, and has a great milk steamer, and we also have a drip coffee maker that has cocoa. The beauty is that if you mix the two plus any of our flavorings like sugar free raspberry you have heaven in a cup. More like a sunshine to start the day. Then there is the afternoon one. I wish they had decaf in the espresso machine. I am thinking of making some ahead of time at home or something and brining it in for the fridge to make chilled coffee drinks. Wonder what the shelf life is....Anyhow and now I am meeting my dear friend, Mandala, for scrabble and coffee at Starbucks (nothing like Starbucks cards to tie one over during those lean days before payday). And yesterday I went down to the amazing coffee shop on the first floor of our building. It is amazing because the coffee is great. I love it. The atmosphere and such is okay, their seating could be a lot better, but I went there to get out of the office and proof an important doc. I saddled up to their exterior seating which was a tall table ledge and stools that faced glass which faces REI, its parking garage and environmental haven. How metropolitan of me. I for once felt like I belonged there and I truly enjoyed it even though the work was tough.

It was the creamy strong breve that made the work bareable. It was decaf and precious to the last drop. It isn't the caffeine that I am going for, well other than a bit first thing in the morning, but it is the flavor the texture, the socialness, the comfort, the friend within a cup, the reason to sit at a place that plays hip soothing music and do nothing or something or whatever you want as long as it is on the chill side.

How magical is the foam on top of a cappuccino, frothy and flavorful without being made from much. How refreshing an iced mocha is to stave of heat and humidity. And ah, how sinful is the cinnamon mocha that has a spicy kick to get you hot from the inside out and put a smile on your face. The magic is also in the mug. I love the mug in my hand. I love saucers to put my teaspoon on. Yes I use a teaspoon and I love them. There is something so zen about swirling the foam and cream in coffee. My favorite line in a song is about clouds in my coffee. When you first pour in cold cream in a dark cup of drip coffee clouds emerge, billowing out from underneath. It is only for moments but ah those moments can feel like you are transported into another world, on of dreams and hope and faith and where clouds mean warmth and comfort.

weight and friends

It is amazing how weight affects my friendships so much, take my best friend from middle school and high school. We are still close and I am so grateful she is my friend and that she is so cool. She is beautiful and she is skinny. I am not. I am 30.6 lbs lighter than I was a year ago, but I am still a long way from skinny. I don't think she realizes how that affects us. Or maybe she does. So does every skinny girl have a fat friend, or is it vice versa, every fat girl has a skinny friend. Or do the skinny women not really notice there is any difference at all. The things I ponder at 10:46 pm, and realize I am not that vested in any more about.

Monday, May 22, 2006

clouds in my coffee

It is amazing how magical a night can be at a great restaurant. Manchu took me out to dinner at Joey in Bellevue. So often we forget to take time and enjoy life. But dinners can give that opportunity. But even then it is easy to make light talk or talk only of work and wolf our food down without either enjoying the food or the company. Somehow by the end of the dinner the talk is just warming up. That is why coffee is the best part of the meal. Once that coffee gets poured and the cream creates clouds in my coffee the night transforms into magic. Suddenly life seems clearer and life is easier, and thoughts more profound. All my best conversations are over coffee. Manchu and I discussed dreams and anxiety and how people change and how people fit.

All this is so more romantic in my head. I might do a rewrite when I am not tired, and not distracted by tv.

May all your dreams be filled with fluffy covers and coffee filled with clouds.

Friday, May 19, 2006

close ups -- see my new hair color/cut!


Me with Chloe (Jim's cat), what more can I say?



















With my sunglasses, yes it is sunny in Seattle!
















Striking a pose or two or three :)

New Wardrobe! (May 06) Big Post


A look at my new pants and matching shirt. The pants are off white with coral stripes. I know there is a better name for the color, I will have to find it and tell you about it. Love them and they are so comfortable!
















I couldn't NOT get black. This top goes with my pin stripe pants (seen here) so cool but sophisticated :)
plus I look really really chesty, I am such a ham sometimes
*keehee*















I now own a skirt! I love skirts but they never quite worked with my body type. Now I have one that works!!
Even the cash register guy said it was cute/nice. :) (and he wasn't fem)















This I wore today, it looks better when I adjust the shrug better. I can't believe I got gouchos!!