Addictions

Addictions have come and gone in my life, but I always seem to have a vice. When I find myself unable to stop from doing something even when I know I should wait or relax. I swore I would only have one doll from mytwinn.com but in the past 3 days I have bought 3 more. And one of them I will be buying a wig for and changing it so it looks like my dear sweet Korben when he was young. I have a shopping vice, always have, and now I am doing this. They are cute, a little scary since they are so realistic. I will post pictures of them shortly.

I am not sure where I am going right now with my life.

Life is so much better with Korben, but we still have things to work on. Romance has been difficult for us. Always in opposite moods. Work is stressful too, for both of us. But I finally feel like we are on a even platform which doesn't involves ER rooms, or anything. We are able to be real and deal from there.

I am finding myself hiding from life. This weekend I didn't want to go out and Korben had food poison or the stomach flu. I will be happy when we finally are able to both be healthy at the same time and in good spirits. I have let depression seep in again, mainly anxiety that has stayed around too long.

I am rambling with no direction, but haven't blogged in so long I wanted to put some thoughts down.