So much has happened in the past week. Our bathroom has been ripped open and we found out there was mildew and mold and dripping water in the wall behind the toilet. More seizures for Bing and migraines for me this week. I have gotten a new apartment of my own. We initially thought we would find a bigger place and move in together more permanently, but realized it isn't right at this time. Too soon. We love being together but realize that two personalities as big as ours and the number of guides and such we have a crowded one bedroom and it is just too crowded. We both are growing and learning to be strong on our own and need our own places, him with his ultra bachelor pad and me with my ultra pink pad.
Through this decision I realized that it is true sometimes you have to take a step in a different direction to move forward. What society says is forward or more specifically what is backwards isn't. I love Bing so much and it is with that love I realized I need my own space so I can be his girlfriend again and not his caretaker/mother and also try to be a girlfriend. I need to take care and love myself before I can really give back and be all for him I want to and all he deserves. Lately I have been depleted and drained. Too many major balls in the air and it has resulted in me not being my true self. To be short tempered, snippy and generally a b*tch. I didn't like me so I didn't expect others to either.
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